waaa....
it's a little long time after my last post...,
so many things happened in my life recently...:'(
there's a thing that make me feel so depress like there is no way out and i just stuck on that damn situation without knowing how to go out from that circumstance
i feel so lonely, no hope, desperate..,
but i can't do anything,,if i wanna set free i have to finish this problem first
well maybe this not a real problem,,it seems like a huge process that i have to pass to go to the next level of my life. the truth is i'm not ready yet for this process but there is no "time out and there is "no another time" so ready or not i have to pass it. life its not simple,very complicated, always full of surprise..,we'll never know what will happen tomorow.., only god who can decided what will happen tomorrow and what will happen in my life..,
i'm so scared about what will happen tomorrow..,
i'm so scared if everything is not like what i want and not like what i've planned
how if i failed and i have no chance to try again,
how if i ruining all of this process and have no chance to fix it all.,
how if i dissapointed all of people who have high expectation on me..,
omoooo....what should i do???
somebody help me...,
i have to defeat this fear..,i have to be optimist..,i have to beleive that god always have a wonderful plan in every people life
but why becoming optimist is little difficult for me..,
sometimes i feel that i can doing anything and i'm sure that i can do that thing with great
but when a get a little courageous i saw that there is a few people who underestimate me and its make my fear grow again..
dear god..,
please help me to defeat this fear
help me to be optimist, to be a person who always see the chance in every single step of my life
help me to be a person who always believe that there's a beautifull life that waiting for me..
